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starting over this time..

This is so.... confusing.
This world, this fate.
My life has spun around too many times to count now.
I can't figure it out.
Why do I keep thinking about that night?
All the time, I catch myself thinking of it.. Thinking of him.
I opened up to his so easily.
But why?
I never do that to anyone.. For anyone.
He makes my heart race, ALL THE TIME.
I feel myself smiling when he is around. But why? why is he so important?
I don't get this..

Even worse I can't figure him out.
It's killing me.
I can't understand him.
He seemed like he wanted my attention this week.
He kept doing little things.
Mostly scaring me.
And standing behind me, his head inches above my shoulder...
I should have done it, I should have just grabbed him and kissed him..
I need to do it.
I can't be scared of rejection or it'll never happen..


This is my novel of life.. And this new chapter starts now.

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tiffani_gore
Dec. 10th, 2008 03:35 am (UTC)
Shit, look at the date dumb fuck, this was written a week and a half ago.

And do I even fucking know you?
xxnotformexx
Jan. 6th, 2009 05:11 am (UTC)
Sorry if you think I'm weird for commenting, but my friend Danny linked me to this post and I just thought it was so perfect in how real it feels. I wish I could tell how I feel as easily as you do.
Syd
tiffani_gore
Jan. 19th, 2009 05:24 am (UTC)
Trust me, it's not easy. But here, noone knows me, it's easier to write when I don't have to face my friends about certain people. I blog on my myspace, but only things I know I can share with them..
I guess this an escape for me when it comes to things like relationships, parties, people, life..
greenskulls21
Jan. 18th, 2009 05:05 pm (UTC)
I think you just described how most girls feel when they are embraced by the present of there crush or liked one.
icaughtmyselff
Feb. 8th, 2009 12:32 am (UTC)
ty for joining the smoshh comm. :)
musical_loser
Aug. 2nd, 2009 11:04 pm (UTC)
Wow, this is... wow. Nicely written.

Good work.
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